Living The Pozitive LIfe

The last time I wrote was 4 months ago. Last month, 8 tubes of blood was drawn from me, and in today's consultation, finally we have come to this day. My CD4 dropped to just 306 with percentage of 9%, enough for the doctor to ask me to begin med. looking at the VL, my VL dropped 85% naturally since diagnosed, without med without supplement. I hope I can maintain this level. Thing is, I feel perfectly healthy without any sickness in the last 2 years, breaking my own record (at least once a year MC last time). I can't remember when was the last time I took a real MC lol. So doctor put me on 6 weeks vitamins regime to get me stronger to begin med by September. I have 3 tablets each intake, twice a day. Now just need to pick a suitable timing and stick to it. So I went to the pharmacy and collected 252 pills in 4 bags. Spent 20 minutes with the pharmacist in a private room for some counseling session. Yea, the next time I'm seeing her, she'll be dispensing me the gi...

Today officially marks one year since I was diagnosed. In this one year, I have grew and learnt a lot, meet a few pox friends or friends who later revealed their status, I find that it doesn't make one any different than negative individuals. My twitter account has brought me many friends and support, from an English nurse in England to a columnist in New York to students in this part of the region among others. Feel free to add me, it's iloveilive29. How did I come out with that handle? Well, it's nothing more than I love the life I am given now, making me appreciate it so much more, when I love my life, I live better. Hence I love so I live, and I was 29 when I was diagnosed. I turned 30 now. And I hope for many more birthdays to come! =) When I was young, I always said I don't wanna grow old and I wanna die young. Rubbish crap I was saying there.. I barely lived in the first 30 years! Ahhh.. Anyway, ole ole ole!

My first time really observing World AIDS Day, because for the first time, this matters. I have taken a strong interest since I was diagnosed. I spent hours and days reading and studying and coming to terms. Perhaps one day a cure would be freely available to everyone without the pains of surgeries and such. The difference between being HIV-negative and HIV-positive is a condom. Use it. Every single time. It does matter.

Has anyone given a thought to the topic above before? I guess not. We only think about it after its too late. Not one of us, not any of us would have given it a serious thought when we were on the bed with our legs apart. I'm sorry my friends, that if you think we pozzie whine, we don't. We don't even have any regrets anymore. We have been given a second chance in life, and while we go on with our lives living it to the fullest and making every day count plus ensuring we keep ourselves and our loved ones safe, it is you out there, the ignorant ones, that are in danger. We may have our own set of complications and problems but none of them are all as much as the single ignorance and blatant disregard for safe sex. Put on the fucking condom! And as a bottom, insist on the fucking condom!! I just had my 3rd reading result out. My CD4 count dropped a little to 458, and I think I know why. Smoking. All else being equal through the months, I lighted up more than the first...

I have since transferred to Tanglin Hospital near Bukit Aman after the last episode of drama I encountered in University Malaya Medical Centre.  The nurses and doctor there are so much nicer and friendlier compared to UMMC. Plus, it's just a 5 minutes drive away from my workplace. Hence "straying" wasn't much of a problem.  I had my consultation done a fortnight ago and was scheduled for blood sampling this morning. My appointment was scheduled for 8am. My physician actually called up the hospital and I overheard some of the conversation noting that she has scheduled me for blood taking this morning.  The nurses then scrambled around the waiting area looking for a Chinese man, and when they spot me, I guess they know I was already there. The other patients don't really fit into the descriptions of sorts. Then they ushered me into the assistant's room and the formalities were done. Then they gave me the lab papers and got me to the lab at the nex...

I mentioned once that there's this rude doctor from The Safe Clinic that I hate. Not only was he rude, I find him unprofessional and he is mentoring an angmoh medical student, that's equally as rude. Here's why. My check-up was due actually, and since Safe Clinic has gone for good, this doctor, let's call him DR I, referred me back to himself at University Malaya Medical Centre which also happens to be one of the country's elite medical university.. Since consultation timing is only in the afternoon, I literally did nothing the whole day and went to the hospital at lunch time. It's a fucking clinic, nobody tells me I have to have my blood taken first, wait for the results and then come back many days later to see the doctor. Ok, this is a government hospital so it's fine. UNDERSTANDABLE . TOO MANY FUCKING IDIOTS AROUND. After 2 hours of waiting, they asked me to just go have a chat with DR I, but since I have not done my blood test, there's no ...

I had my second test last month.. the results took a lot longer this time to come out. So my latest readings are: CD4: 476 CD4 %: 21 VL: 1.2mil The VL part is scary as it has increased since my last test.. My doctor advised to start med but at the same time had reservations too, so am I. I guess its the psychological factor to begin med for life, that is the greatest hurdle for me. I cannot bring myself yet to fully accept that yet. Even though I have been taking daily supplements, but that's different. I have on many days did not take the supplements, but with med, I know there's no excuse. The fact that first-line med is free in Malaysia is really a good news, because fellow pozzies in Singapore pays SGD1k a month for them, something I totally cannot afford. God bless us all. However, the government cut funding to Malaysian Aids Council and as a direct result, The Safe Clinic is winding up operations of providing free HIV testing and counselling. The best part is...