Another year gone by

So another year is coming to an end. How was 2016 to you?

This year has been quite exceptional to me. I received many emails from both anonymous and non-anonymous people (but don't worry, never have I once looked it up on Facebook or any social media that could have identify you as a person - I'm better than that!), some of you just wrote to me to thank me for sharing. Some have more questions than others. Some were quite lost.

Whoever you are, wherever you may be, I am not a saint, neither do I claimed to be one. I'm just a regular gay guy who happens to be positive in life and HIV. But deep down you know you can identify with me because I have been there. People say, you won't truly understand something if it hadn't happen to you.

I say, fuck you that's so true!

Think of a time when you said something like "I know how you feel..." but in actual fact, you don't? Sucks right?

Well, this is where I filled in the void. Because I know. Like know know.

It has been exactly 5 years since this guy shove his cock up my ass and came in me and my life changed. But I did not sit there and whine and cry. What's the use?

I decided to write because writing is what I do better. To share my experience, my journey, and in all that, to let you know that this is not the end of the world.

We are in this all together. If I can be of help in any way one way or another, I will. As a Malaysian HIV positive, this struggle is not mine alone.

Life as a pozzie certainly changed. I took greater care of myself and not to "overexpose" myself, if you know what I mean. Then there's the question of dating and boyfriends. How do you handle that?

Next year I would like to explore writing about dating and boyfriends. I felt it is an important part of life, in the "next phase of life". About dating, about boyfriends, and in the midst of all that, consultations, doctors' visits, medication, complications etc.

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I was once as lost as you are now too. I spent hours and days at ends on the internet searching for information to convince myself I hadn't gone crazy. In fact, many of you who wrote to me, start by saying how glad you were to have come across my blog. That's when I knew I have done something right.

As we march in 2017, I would love to hear about your progress, how far you've come, and maybe with your permission and some creative writing, let me share your story as well.

For those who are still hesitating to get tested or not, please just get tested! In actual fact, if you are in denial or are afraid to get tested, I think you wouldn't have stumbled onto this. I think that 99% of you who are here already know your test results and just want more information of what's next.


For now, peace out and have a happy new year!