"It doesn't bother me"

Perhaps the most positive thing I have ever heard since being positive (what a pun!), is that the people that I chose to tell, says back to me that "it doesn't bother me"..

On one hand, I was very glad and grateful I have such wonderful friends, on the other hand, I kinda doubt if they know what the heck I am talking about..

True enough, many people who have walked this road tells me that being poz isn't as bad as those who has it worse like kidney failure, hypertension, big C, etc etc.. well, maybe..

Two things I have come to accept - that we will all die (but I don't want the cause of death to be complications arising from being poz and the higher risks it carries due to compromised immune system), and number two, that there is no cure yet, but I am so keeping my hopes high that eventually they will have a cure - they are so close, but non definite.. At whatever cost and if it's proven to wipe out 100% and become negative again, I will go for it..

But the latest doubt that I have put to rest is when I feel like putting a face to this anonymous blog/twitter account for someone who's been really sweet..

In the end, I did, I showed him who I am, and went out together, and then yep, things are definitely going good.. and he didn't seem to be bothered at all about my status, and I am doing all I can to prevent putting him at any risk, not like there's sex involved or something haha..

Educated myself enough on how HIV can spread, I hope he arms himself with some knowledge too.. He's just too adorable and I think I am liking him already.. from the very moment he said he "doesn't bother" about my status and promised to keep this just between ourselves.. I trusted him enough to reveal my face..

Even among my close friends, some knew some don't.. more like really, the need-to-know basis, on what circumstance that this knowledge can affect the friendship.. yes, even close friends has limitations :)

And this guy has been very supportive and his actions speak louder than his words.. He clearly showed that he's confident and trusted me to keep him safe.. I will not betray that =)


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