The day the world crumbled on me.

I have always thought it can only happened to other people. Little did I know that it hit me as well.

I did not know exactly how I got it, but I have a few suspects in mind. I am very careful when it comes to sex, safe for the few times, which one of that few times I wasn't so lucky.

I kind of expected it already when the hospital requested more blood samples from me. I mean, what are the chances of a lab making mistakes or screwing things up right? I have been regularly testing here so I knew that the margin of error is so slim.

I did not know what to do now. I thought of writing a will to protect the interests of surviving family members in case God decided I should go Home. A lot of things going through my mind now. I don't even know where to start.

First thing first, I did not tell anyone except a couple of close friends whom I can trust. The world cannot know.  This is a cruel world.

I damn need all the emotional and moral support I can get.

I seriously never thought I can be one.

Life is doomed, but I will make sure I live it to the fullest from today onwards.

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  1. Isaac Rizard3 May 2012 at 13:19

    I would not say I could feel you but I admire your courage and strong will to soldier on. Being diagnosed with HIV don't have to be a curse but rather a new beginning that changes life forever.

    Stay strong and live life to the fullest. Hugz... :)

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